Soul Urge number
9 The Humanitarian
What you want is for it to have meant something. Personal comfort ranks below contribution, sometimes to your own cost.
Also called Heart's Desire. Calculated from the vowels in your name — the sounds you cannot make silently — it describes motivation rather than behaviour.
What 9 does well
Sees the whole picture and gives without keeping score. Lets things finish.
What it costs
Carries other people's burdens as an escape from its own, and holds on to what should have ended.
9 elsewhere in the chart
This is Soul Urge 9 specifically. The same number in another position describes something else entirely.